Eleven months?!
Last year I started this blog for a few different reasons: I wanted to add my voice to the cacophony of video game commentary on the internet, I wanted to exercise my writing ability and just get something down on some sort of page, but most of all I just wanted to prove that I could do it. Well, as it's painfully obvious, the whole operation was a bit of an epic failure on my part.
If I think back on the last year there were a few different reasons this blog didn't really do the things I wanted it go.
First, I found I didn't have the time to dedicate to writing the weekly post that I had set up as a personal goal. Between work and classes I had one day off each week. The last thing I wanted to do with my twenty-four hour rest period was think up a topic and obsess over it for the rest of the day. As the year went on the amount of coursework I had to get complete increased exponentially, to the point that I was well and truly burned out by the end of the year. The good news is that I officially graduated last year, so now I have a lot more free time (too much free time in fact) to try and commit myself to a blog that no one reads!
The second reason my attempt to blog failed is that I unnecessarily dedicated myself to only writing about video games. Sure, I love video games, but I don't play nearly enough of them to produce any sort of significant written output. In the last two months I've played two new games (Assassin's Creed Brotherhood and Dead Space 2) and replayed another (Uncharted 2). Before December I couldn't tell you the last game I sat down and finished (I have started and given up on countless PC Games - Curse you reasonably priced steam sales!). I have interests other than video games, so why I chose to hamstring myself in such a way is baffling. I love to read, I love movies and television, I'm an uneducated fan of music, and there are plenty of topics of interest in the world on which to comment. So, long story short, it's time to expand.
The final, and most important reason, that this blog failed is that I underestimated my unlimited capacity for procrastination and laziness. I am the king of making excuses and wasting time. Do you know how long I've been thinking about writing this blog entry? Two weeks! It took me two weeks to sit down and write the blog post about trying to write blog posts, that's how bad I am. At least twice this week I've had trouble falling asleep because ideas I wanted to write about were rattling around in my head. Do you know how many of those ideas have been put to paper? None! My ability to procrastinate is so profound that I will literally sit around bored out my mind, aimlessly searching the internet, just because I can't be bothered to do anything. Procrastination has even affected my ability to properly look for a new job.
This is a scary realization. What's even scarier is that I recognize this massive personal defect and I still haven't done anything about it. So, this blog entry is meant to serve as a kick in the pants. I'm not going to promise that I will blog on a regular basis, but sitting down and writing this all out is definitely a step in the right direction.
Let's just hope I can avoid the two steps back.
